One Simple Life Goal

There is one simple life goal I have...

    and that is to  BE HAPPY.

and to be happy is simple. But at the same time it is not so simple. 

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So today when I feel not so happy, I start to question myself as to what do I need to  be happy.

In the past, what kept me from happiness was not liking myself. For reals!... I did not like being me. I wanted to be someone else. 
It was what we call self esteem at its lowest. 

Then I learned that in fact I am different. And that I didn't like myself because I was denying me of me. As I tried to be like everyone else I was failing epically, an hence I hated myself. 

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So now that I am more happy with who I am... there are still a few things missing..

When I had a secure job and was away from family, there was one thing missing.

I liked the job and I didn't mind being away from family; and I could say there were all these self-doubt aspects troubling me, but above that there was something more crucial holding me back from total happiness...
I lacked a sense of belonging. I didn't feel at ease with the people I was working with. I didn't like the energy. So the thing that was missing was the right energy for me.

So I quit as I was starting to have problems with my bosses and went back home to Oman. 

There, I started my own practice. And that had the perfect energy. But guess what?! There was something missing for my true and honest happiness. The things missing were volume and guidance i.e impacting more people and feeling like I was progressing.

So I set on the journey of network marketing, to have a greater impact and follow a path of success. 

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Now, after 20 months...thing missing.... by this point I am starting to think there is something wrong with me! 

Thing missing.... Fuck! Vision, determination and action but blaming other people. 

Thing missing... no longer feeling 100% aligned with the company here in Colombia. Loosing faith and belief in the company. And without those things there is no ground to build a team. But ultimately things missing: Vision and Determination. 

So while I stopped the network marketing for a while and I am taking up my private practice again there is something missing!!! And that is ... BELIEF!!!!

Wow, I didn't expect this ending. I thought I was going to talk about money, purpose... what not. But the conclusion has end up being BELIEF!

I guess I'll get to work on that!

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So to conclude...

Concrete things I need for my happiness:

1. Having the RIGHT ENERGY i.e doing things that are aligned with truth, my purpose, my energy <3 

2. IMPACTING the world, impacting people; and having a path to follow that is in alignment with my vision and my goals. 

3. VISION AND DETERMINATION, hold that beautiful vision that I have for my life and for the world and continue to have the balls to carry it out to completion! 

4. BELIEF IN MYSELF! To stop self sabotaging and blaming other things for my shortcomings and my failing to arrive to the finish line!

I think if the four things above are accomplished I will satisfy the fifth requirement:

5. MONEY! Beautiful money. 

It was never an aspect that affected my happiness. But in the stage that I am at now, being 29 and still not have my financial independence I realize that Money is a must!!! To buy and do anything that I want, whenever I want, however many times I want. 

(Side note: all this money translates to helping, impacting and having an effect on people while doing the things that I love!)

Simple. 

Summary: to achieve my one life goal to be  HAPPY, I have to do the things that I love, help people doing so, stick to my vision, believe in myself and get paid for the things that I do! Period.

Wohoooo! :)

Love,                          

Lili